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  • 2015.09.25(金)
  • 2015.09.21(月)
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I want to do things together.
I don't want to just sit at home busy with our own businesses.
I want to visit random stations. Visit museums and exhibitions. Stop by random parks. Take random photos together.
Spend winter and spring together. Cuddle together when it's cold out there and watch random shows on TV.
There are still lots of places I want to visit here before I graduate next year.....
But you're not here.

Maybe I still want those things because I'm immature, though....because I haven't lived here long enough to get bored of everything.....
But I just wish to spend my whole life with someone who enjoys the same things as I do, because lust won't last forever.

Anyway. I myself don't know what I want to do in my life, so whatever. Just ignore everything I just said.

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ぷち旅


Two days ago, I went to Gotokuji Temple, Ginza and cat cafe at Shibuya with my friend N.
Gotokuji Temple is known with tons of manekineko statues in it.
I've been wanting to go there too!! N, you asked the right person to go with! Thank you! HAHAHA
It was a loooong day but worth every minute.
Such a good refreshment for me who just got back to Japan after a long holiday in Jakarta without going anywhere...

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Manekineko everywhere~

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Lots and lots of manekineko. *u*

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N bought two manekineko statues. He gave the smallest one to me.
This one in the photo is his.

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After praying(?) and taking enough photos, we went to Ginza to see crystal exhibition.
It was awesome!!

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The name of the exhibition is Crystal Universe.

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We also found another exhibition across the street. It's an exhibition by Faber-Castell.

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After eating dinner at a random ramen restaurant (which sucked) in Ginza, we went to a cat cafe at Shibuya.
And it wasn't crowded at all! Only four guests including us!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I couldn't be happier. What a really nice day!

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The 三毛猫 came this close to me and I could touch her!! #LIFEACHIEVEMENT

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Happy people are happy.

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I love life. But only with cats and nice people in it. LOL

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Back


I'm back in Tokyo again in my dusty apartment this morning and that's when I remembered that I forgot to bring my camera's charger.
...........

How can I be so stupid.
Ah..........

Anyway.
The weather is pretty cool. I don't have to turn on AC all the time.
I came back just in the right time HAHA.

But I have a runny nose now cos of the dust in my room......
It doesn't feel good. My head kinda hurts now.
I think I should go to sleep soon.
I couldn't sleep during the flight (as usual).

Ah...... I'm back to living alone again now.
It's kinda sad.........but not really.....cos I'll get to see red leaves and snow in the next few months..
My summer holiday wasn't that bad.
My sister came home too and the four of us could finally spend time together again even though it was for a very short time. I miss that time.
I wish we could stay as kids forever.
But time will go on and I have to continue living my life alone as an adult....
Ah....I don't want to 'adult'.

But fuck I will soon graduate from uni. I'm a senior now.
What to do after that????
Get a job and become an average adult???
Ah.....

I'm writing this post for no purpose. My blog is so boring these days (and it will continue to be more boring from now on lol)

Shit
I hate how my apartment feels so suffocating. I cleaned my room a bit today but it's still so suffocating.
(It's always been like this though....)

I think I'll sleep soon. I'm tired.

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Saturday night


I'm a happy girl tonight.
MTV played all my favorite bands in a row.

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*switches TV cos my parents don't like what I'm listening to*

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Simple Plan was before MCR.......I like them too but oh well I don't like them that much.

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a good article.


I read a good article this morning.

http://www.theatlantic.com/education/archive/2014/08/qa-the-miseducation-of-our-college-elite/377524/?utm_source=SFFB

These students are made to understand that they have to be perfect, that they have to do everything perfectly, but they haven’t turned to themselves to ask why they’re doing it. It’s almost like a cruel experiment with animals that we’re performing—every time the red light goes on, you have to push the bar. Of course they’re stressed.

This is also why they’re sheep, because they have never been given an opportunity to develop their ability to find their own direction. They’re always doing the next thing they’re being told to do. The trouble is that at a certain point, the directives stop.



...It’s not real self-possession, where you are measuring yourself against your own internal standards and having a sense that you’re working towards something. It’s totally conditional, and constantly has to be pumped up by the next grade, the next A, or gold star.




So when you fail, even a little bit, even if you just get a B on a test, or an A- on a test, the whole thing collapses. It may only collapse temporarily, but it’s a profound collapse—you feel literally worthless.



These are kids who have no ability to measure their own worth in any realistic way—either you are on top of the world, or you are worthless.



...the fact that we’ve created a system where kids are constantly busy, and have no time for solitude or reflection, is going to take its toll.



Given the chance, adolescents tend to engage in very intense conversation, and a lot of life learning happens laterally, happens peer to peer. But if they're constantly busy, there's literally no time. It’s crazy. We’ve taken adolescence away from adolescents.



These stuff the writer is saying...............are so similar to my life.
I'm not always on the top, but I've always been surrounded by people on the top MY WHOLE LIFE.

What the writer writes is literally my whole high school life.
The pressure to be like my smart friends in order to fit in the society I'm living in is always haunting me.
I did not like the things I was studying but I am forced to get good grades on those.
I found that I like and am good at arts since I was in elementary school but that passion soon disappeared because of the overwhelming pressure to live up to the high expectations of my elite high school.
"we have to be number one in the national exam because we've always been on the top for 95859840954 years"
oh yeah they're always saying that to the students, I'm not even kidding.
If I am bad at math and science, then I am not smart.
If my smart friends are bad at arts, that doesn't matter. People would always say like "not everyone has the aptitude for those kind of things."



"The trouble is that at a certain point, the directives stop"
And this, is my current point.

I have no idea what I want to do in this life
........and if I am not worth anything, then I don't think that I deserve to be in this fucked up world.

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