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  • 2014.04.27(日)
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Ah....




No wonder cats around the park near my house are all fat. Apparently there's a cat volunteer community who take care of the stray cats.....lol........

I love my apartment location even more. Not only it's close to 3 stations and to my uni, there are also cats nearby. Haha.

By the way. Golden week holiday starts today......it's April 30 now.

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I never feel good about myself.

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I saw this at the supermarket I always go to...lol....



"To all good children"
"Let's stop changing the product's price cos it becomes a nuisance for other people."

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maybe I shouldn't get free time at all


I'm actually free today.
I already finished my assignments and only need to study for Tuesday's history quiz.
I also cleaned my room and bought groceries.
I only had an appointment with a dentist at 6 pm.
Yet I did nothing productive and ended up spacing out most of the time before and after I went out.
This cycle ALWAYS repeats.
Now you know what I did during spring holiday.
I don't know since when I don't know what to do with my free time.
Perhaps after I started high school.

So I ended up unhealthily looking at my laptop all day.
Looking at people's lives through facebook...how my old classmates are doing.....
I also browsed my folders, looked at some old and new photos...
I've realized this before, cos people always say to me,
that I rarely smile.
My expression is always so different from my sister.

How pathetic. As if my life has always been so miserable.
Ah, at least I was happy during my childhood and junior high.

I decided not to upload photos to facebook.
It's enough. I don't want to see my ungrateful face.

Looking at letters my friends wrote to me on my birthday, stuff they wrote to me when we graduate high schools, and an easter letter my friend in Australia sent me....
They always cheer me up.
At least, I still have them.
People who would grow old with me together and laugh about weird jokes only us would understand.....


But it's still sad.

What they say about "life is over when you stop dreaming"
I think it's true.
I'm sorry if I sound too exaggerating.
You might not know how it feels.
But even at this moment I still say I would die if I'm allowed to.
But I don't have the will.

I care too much.
I don't want to live for other people
but I also don't know what to do with my life.
I love to make people happy
but I can never make myself happy.

Things that used to make me happy
Drawing, listening to music, reading comics
just don't work anymore.

How can I make people happy if I can't make myself happy?
there's no point.

And if one day I can't grow old with you guys together...
I'm sorry.

I just have no idea of what I would do in the future.
I just hope I won't do something stupid.

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No time.......


It's only the third week of school and I'm starting to feel the burden of taking the maximum credits.
ha ha ha

I never ever draw anymore. Except on history classes, where I always draw anything that appears on the slides to help myself in understanding the content. It's hard to memorize stuff without pictures.
I'm more of a visual person- I can never remember anything the teacher say during class if I don't take notes lol
I like history classes, cos they have tons of pictures...


Lately I haven't updated facebook.
I think I should post some photos. Soon. I don't know when.

Sorry for the shitty post.
I need to sleep soon.

I'm tired. I should have been able to go home early today if I didn't have to look for stuff my mom wants me to buy for her. I spent more than an hour looking around cosmetic stores and chatting with her.... sigh.........

Good night.

Tomorrow will be a tiring day...
wait, it's actually today......

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